A quick take on life in the face of challenges
It is funny when people project their expectations on you and it is very difficult when that is the job you do. In the famous words of a man I care about so much “rub your chin and move on” life isn’t fair. This isn’t even about fairness but the same discourse we’ve had for so long about beauty and the pressure there is to be beautiful and the stereotype kind way to fit in in the media industry.
I have been so critical of women all over who have lost their lives and destroyed their bodies going to such extents to make themselves beautiful. Getting nose jobs, botox and breast implants but when you are in front of the camera every seeming flaw becomes magnified and you become subject to your audience and your employer and to yourself. They I am not beautiful so I am not then right? We all have admitted that shamefully to ourselves. You cannot just look at yourself in the mirror and say “yes I am beautiful and I don’t give two fucks whether you agree or not.” That attitude becomes arrogant, undesirable and sometimes even petty.
I’m under such pressure and I say fuck it. My crooked smile and my vintage beauty is a gift from God. Like a pearl you gotta look deeper to find the twinkle in my eyes and beauty in my body type. I will age with grace and be clothed in confidence that comes from a person who understands her value to the world. A person who understands her strength in every kind of circumstance. Her smile that redefines a person’s day. A beauty that can be adjusted and like the chameleon fits in and blends in. I am unique and I celebrate my beauty and my definition of beautiful even if you don’t see it. I do and I will bet over a million bucks that in time you will realize that I was right and you were terribly mistaken. I’ll forgive you anyway that your ignorance blinded you. We all get ignorant sometimes. Celebrate your beautiful just the way you are. If you weren’t worth it you won’t exist.