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Hello Pulse,
I don’t know how to forgive myself for what I did and I'm not proud of it either.
My younger brother and I both applied for a US visa. I got rejected. He got approved. It was my 5th time applying and getting rejected. Everyone was happy for him—my mum was crying, my dad was proud, and I smiled and congratulated him. But deep down, I was jealous. I felt like I’d failed again.
A few days before his flight, I saw his passport on his bed while he was in the shower. I don’t know what came over me, but I took it, went outside, and burnt it. Just like that. I wished I was the one that got approved instead. I'm older than him so I should have been the one they were happy for.
He never suspected me. Everyone assumed it was lost. His trip got cancelled. And he was still calm and kind through it all — even said “maybe it’s for the best.”
Now I can’t sleep. Every time I see him, I feel disgusted with myself. I don’t know how to confess or make it right. I just know I ruined something out of pure envy, and I hate that I let it get that far.
What do I do?
— Melody
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Hi Melody,
What you did was wrong — but admitting it is the first step. If you truly feel remorse, the next step is accountability. Jealousy is human.
Tell your brother the truth. Own what you did without excuses. Then offer to replace everything you cost him — the passport, new visa application, flight — all of it.
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Actions speak louder than guilt. He may be hurt, angry, or even silent, and that’s valid. But healing starts when you stop hiding and start making it right. Jealousy made you act. Now let integrity guide what you do next.
— Pulse