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Duane Chapman, a.k.a. Dog the Bounty Hunter , was devoted to his wife Beth, who died in late June at age 51 after an ongoing battle with throat cancer. And, on the finale of his TV show Dogs Most Wanted, Duane is shown contemplating suicide hours after Beth died.
"Ive only been alone as I showered, and I had to run out without a towel, because I cant be alone right now," the 66-year-old said during the finale, according to People . "Thats when I start thinking about things. And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog. I dont realize yet psychologically that shes gone gone, and Ill never, ever see her. I dont realize that."
Duane also said he doesnt want to live without his wife. "I just hope that I dont live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, shes through the gate," he continued. "She paved a way for me. I want to take a goddamn pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal, and I got to heaven and was like, Hi honey, and would she go, You dumbass, why would you do that? Or would she go, Wow, youre here. Ill be like Of course Im here. You left me. Im here. So, am I obligated to do that?"
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Beth was diagnosed with stage two throat cancer in 2017 and had surgery to remove the tumor. She then relapsed in November 2018 and had been fighting stage four throat cancer for several months when she died on June 26. Three months after his wifes death, Duane learned during an episode of The Dr. Oz Show that he had a pulmonary embolism in his heart, a life-threatening condition where one or more of the arteries is blocked.
Duane told People at the time that he "hesitated" to seek treatment because hes so wary of doctors and hospitals. "I hesitated for a minute thinking, I dont want to have to go through this again," he said. "I dont want to die right now. Im not afraid to die anymore, but I really didnt care for awhile if something would happen. I do care now."